This post may be a little strange since I’m sharing about something I’m experiencing that I don’t really understand. So don’t expect this to make perfect sense. This is what’s unfolding at the edges of my reality, especially while my body is asleep and my mind is dreaming. If that topic doesn’t interest you, or if the word “astral” makes you flinch, you can surely skip this.
One particular surprise from exploring with psychedelics was just how much it shifted my nighttime dreams. I’d say it’s been months since I can recall having what I used to think of as a “normal” dream, whereby the dream takes the form of a fictional narrative, either alone or with imagined dream characters. I used to have these narrative-based dreams often, and I’ve been good at remembering my dreams for decades. Now those kinds of dreams seem like they’re totally gone. Either that or I no longer remember having them when they occur. I can still vividly recall having other types of dreams now.
For months now, every dream that I can recall feels very astral in nature, like I’m visiting real places on other planes of existence somewhere in spirit space, not in some mentally imagined dreamscape running inside my brain. I often visit the same astral locations repeatedly across different dreams on different nights.
Every character that I encounter in these spaces feels like an independent conscious entity, not a figment of my imagination. Often they seem like the spirit-level aspects of other incarnated humans or former humans, like a bunch of us are having experiences together while our human bodies are asleep. I feel like I’m visited and exploring areas that are abuzz with lots of conscious social activity.
It’s been a long time since saw anything or anyone in my dreams that I could describe afterwards as a fictional dream character. I feel like those types of dreams were a placeholder or a block that’s been removed, and now I’ve somehow been granted more access to explore and remember what’s beyond that old mode of dreaming.
Attending Astral School
These new kinds of dreams really stretch my human mind to make sense of them. They don’t usually translate well into typical narratives, stories, or progressions. They feel like very real, spirit-level explorations and experiences, and they often don’t fit the flow of linear time very well. If I were to cast them into a narrative format, I might describe them as feeling like part of me is going through some form of schooling, training, or testing. When I wake up, I frequently feel that I was just in an astral school or training facility, and I clearly wasn’t the only student there. I’ve often been in spaces where I felt the presence of dozens, hundreds, or thousands of other conscious being roaming about.
In many of these dreams, there are constructs with many buildings. Some areas feel like enormous university campuses. Other areas feel like parts of larger cities. I know they aren’t made of real buildings in the human physical sense though. I sense that my human mind is interpreting and translating these signals and making them look and feel like buildings. However, part of me also understands that they’re actually constructs made of light or energy of some kind.
When I wake up most mornings now, my human body feels refreshed as usual. Most of my human mind feels refreshed too. I usually feel good emotionally. However, some part of me also senses that I’ve been working hard on something all night long, and that part feels a bit fatigued from whatever I was doing while my body was sleeping. That fatigued feeling usually goes away after an hour or two though. I’m not even sure it’s any real kind of fatigue. I think my human mind is just trying to make sense of the experience, and it’s casting its perceptions into an expectation that I probably ought to feel tired since I appeared to be doing extensive mental work (perhaps learning or studying) while ostensibly sleeping. Another part of me tries to see through the illusion of this expectation. My human mind is caught in the middle, wondering if it really does have some accumulated fatigue from these nighttime experiences and if so, where it’s coming from.
I’m usually unable to remember what kinds of subjects, lessons, or schooling is actually occurring during these dreams. Sometimes I have a sense that it’s loosely tied to a familiar subject like geometry, chemistry, or history. The feeling that I was engaging in something mathematical is especially common.
Simulation Dreams
Another common type of dream I have is like a recurring simulation. It feels like my brain is acting like a computer, and it’s being fed a stream of data with slight variations for internal testing or training purposes. My experience of these dreams is like living through a simple scenario over and over again, like dozens of times, with slight variations each time. Sometimes the events are different, and sometimes my responses are different. It’s a bit light experiencing the movie Groundhog Day where the same situation is repeated and different options are explored on each cycle. Usually the time slices are much shorter though, so instead of reliving the same day, it’s like reliving the same couple of minutes.
Part of me wonders if these dreams are interpretations of mental processes that my human brain is doing in the background while I sleep. Perhaps I’m just becoming more away of these mental simulation processes. I’m not sure.
I don’t recall having these kinds of dreams before exploring psychedelics. Now they are quite common.
I wouldn’t call these dreams bad per se. They can be interesting. They can also feel repetitive and tedious, like I’m caught in a time loop and must repeat the same type of event for hours. There is no sense of having to achieve any particular standard to escape the loop. It feels like I’m exploring an array of options, so that perhaps I have access to more of these options while I’m awake.
Often the scenarios running through my mind in these dreams seem related to current events. Other times they seem more fanciful in nature.
Lately these kinds of dreams have been occurring less often while the astral ones have been increasing in frequency.
No Going Back
I have the sense that I’ve turned a page here and that this shift in my dreams is probably going to be permanent. I don’t think the old dream format is ever coming back now. I feel like I’ve left it behind and that I’m continuing to move further away from it. My new normal seems to be having very astral-feeling dreams, and the energy work feels more front-and-center and more real.
Now when I go to bed each night, I feel like another part of me will be waking up in astral space to go to school or attend some kind of training. Some dreams take the form of attending spirity conferences at spirit-level convention centers. They feel like big ballrooms sometimes, even though I know they’re non-physical.
This has become a consistent and pervasive part of my nighttime reality. I don’t feel like I can just switch off that awareness now, like I can’t really unsee or un-realize what’s coming through now. I don’t really want to go back now anyway. I’d rather keep stretching forward into this space and see if I can make more sense of it. It definitely makes me curious about what I’m actually experiencing while my human body is asleep.
Sometimes these other types of dreams are so long and involved that it makes a night feel like a few days in duration. Other times I’ve had the experience of waking up at midnight or 1am and being stunned that only 2-3 hours have passed since I went to bed.
I feel that my human mind tries to cast these experiences into a linear flow of some sort. However, it often struggles to assemble the overall experience into a sequence that makes sense, so I often awaken with memories that include repetitive loops or nonsensical time sequencing. I figure that what I’m actually experiencing doesn’t adhere to linear human time, yet my mind is trying to project it into a linear flow of event-based memories.
Bypassing Human Mental Limits
I’ve been holding some intentions to be able to see more of what’s really happening while dreaming and for my human mind to develop more astral-aligned or flexible ways of interpreting the information that’s flowing through from this direction. I feel like my mind keeps trying to cast these experiences into forms that are still too human though. The human projections of these experiences don’t make much sense. It’s like I’m trying to understand experiences that simply don’t have reasonable translations into human-level thoughts, feelings, perceptions, and memories. If feels like I’m trying to understand an image that’s been compressed down to just 12 pixels. It looks like a blur, yet I know it’s trying to represent something more complex.
I’ve been trying to open and stretch my mind to think more astrally and to allow the data to remain more astral in nature. See if my mind can learn to sense and think better on that level without trying to translate everything into human. I’m discovering that this is a very interesting kind of intention to explore, like I’m onto something here. I feel that it’s gradually expanding the range of what I can experience and remember, and it’s also increasing just how mysterious it it is try to make sense of these dreams afterwards.
I’ve made a lot of progress in thinking more like an energy being, which has been good for my human life too. Now I’m trying to see how I might be able to stretch this way of thinking even further, especially in terms of being able to open up more astral-level senses. Focusing on sensing (rather than interpreting) seems to be helping. I feel like I’m starting to observe a wider range of frequencies that don’t readily translate so directly to my physical human senses. It’s like some part of me on the astral level is slowly blinking its astral eyes open.
These other senses are kicking in more while I’m awake now too. Like I’ll be making lunch, and I can feel something going on astrally at the same time. It’s usually a faint sensation, and it’s gradually getting stronger. I have a pretty clear sense that this will be even more pronounced a year or two from now. Basically it’s this sense that my awareness of and connection to astral space is gradually becoming louder and clearer, both while I’m awake and while I’m asleep.
Increasing Sensitivity
Psychedelic energies visit me pretty much every day now. It doesn’t matter if I take any physical substances. I will feel a surge in some kind of psychedelic energy being present every few hours typically. It’s as if there are psychedelic energy clouds floating all throughout my house, and now and then I walk through one of them and then notice I’m inside its energy field for a while, maybe for 30-60 minutes, sometimes for a few hours. One morning I might feel like I’m attuned to the shroomie network. Another time I’ll recognize MDMA’s energy popping in. On a different day it might be cannabis’ energy. LSD sometimes visits too. Sometimes I feel combos of multiple energies popping in. None of these are bad or threatening experiences. It’s like they’re all just spirity friends popping in to say hi and hanging out for a while. They aren’t human, but they each have a distinct consciousness to them. Sometimes it feels like my reality is filled with psychedelic energy pets. I rather like it. On some level its very comforting to feel so much conscious activity buzzing around me and reaching out to connect.
It’s like I have this always-active inner antenna that’s very sensitive to these frequency ranges now. I don’t know why I pick up these energies when I do. I feel like they’ve probably always been there, and I’m just becoming increasingly sensitive to them, so now I can easily perceive them. It feels like human space is just awash in these signals crisscrossing all through our territory, much like WiFi or radio signals.
I swear I’m even picking up on these energies when other people are carrying them. While walking around the Psychedelic Science 2025 conference in Denver last month, I often felt like I picked up some energetic eddies while gliding past certain people. That guy feels shroomie. That woman is emitting cannabis vibes. Or while talking to a friend who’s done a lot of psychedelics, I feel like I’m sitting in a mild LSD energy cloud when I’m near him. I even feel that way on Zoom calls with him, so it doesn’t seem to require physical proximity.
I’m trying to figure out other ways to practice engaging at the astral level, including while I’m just going about my day-to-day activities. One way is to simply acknowledge what I’m sensing. Share it aloud with myself. Journal about it. Talk with Rachelle about it. Turn towards whatever I’m sensing and say hi to it. I do this a lot, and it helps. Rachelle and I very often pick up similar signals at similar times.
Conscious Energy Communication
Another exploration I’ve been trying has been to engage with different psychedelic energies by deliberately connecting and communicating with them without taking any substances. Call them in when I want to chat with them about something. I’ve done lots of that in the past. It works very well. I know others who can do this too. It’s actually quite common as people gain experience.
This week I started trying something I’ve never tried before, which was to deliberately reach out to a new psychedelic energy where I haven’t ever taken the associated substance.
I’ve never taken the psychedelic 2C-B, yet I spent some time engaging with and channeling its energy this week, which was amazing. It felt different than anything else I’ve experienced. Oddly its energy signature reminded my of the Stitch character from the movie Lilo & Stitch, like this wild, untamed, rambunctious alien force, yet one that also has a huge heart and is immensely loving. It felt like a very powerful energy with an unpredictable side. At some point when I have a chance to actually try it, I can see if it links me to the same energy.
Rachelle and I both had that experience with San Pedro, where we were able to link up with its energy throughout the week before taking it for the first time. Neither of us had taken any mescaline-containing plants before. After taking it, the energy signature was already familiar to us. It was indeed the same energy that had been reaching out to us for days in advance.
Exploring with psychedelics has really stretched my relationship with time because now I usually feel the effects flowing in both temporal directions from the moment of taking a physical substance. If it’s a bigger experience, I will usually start intermittently feeling it about a week in advance. This mode of exploration has been full of many surprises.
I did a bit of probing with mushroom energy to do further Q&A about my dreams since I wanted to get their take on it. They confirmed that my dreams will likely never go back to how they were. Once that veil is lifted, it’s hard to see it coming back down again, especially since I’m too curious about what else is out there now. They also shared that this is a safe zone for me to get more access to explore since it’s outside of the human zone, so I can’t accidentally show people anything they aren’t supposed to see or know yet. The people who aren’t ready for such info will be encoded to dismiss it with relative ease. For them it can just be a dream, a fanciful tale, or the ramblings of some blogger they used to like. I’m sharing this here, however, with the knowledge that some will resonate with it and find it relevant to integrating their own expansive journeys.
The Practical Side of Being a Psychonaut
I’m curious what more will open up here and how I can use what I’m learning about energy flows to apply to my human life as well. These psychonaut explorations keep generating useful and practical insights that I can apply to my human life to good effect. I keep discovering new tools, practices, and ways of thinking that make my human life pretty easy. Yet I’m curious enough that I’m happy to explore pathways that may have no useful human-level application. These types of explorations fascinate me, and I don’t want to be tethered to human-level results, which are all temporary anyway.
Some lovely benefits that I’ve experienced as a result of these energy-level explorations including gliding through life with positivity, ease, and flow. I’m happy every day. Life takes very good care of me. I’m not stressed, overworked, depressed, or anxious. I don’t need or take any pharmaceutical prescriptions. I feel abundantly motivated and sufficiently resourced to live the kind of life I want. I haven’t needed a job or a boss in 33 years now. I learned to create an energy-based relationship with money that took me down a path that I’ve really enjoyed (shared in detail in the 30-day Deep Abundance Integration course that may people have appreciated… and the Amplify course for the creative side).
My favorite human-level result isn’t creative or financial though. It’s being in love. To me this is the best part of living as a human. I get to spend every day with a woman I deeply love and who deeply loves me. We just love the heck out of each other. I’m also very consciously practicing linking and working with love energy. It’s very much like a psychedelic energy to me too. Really to me, all of these psychedelic energies are different subsets of love energy. Money is a form of love energy too.
I find it easier to live as a human by realizing that the real me is actually something quite different – some sort of energy being – and I’m just wearing my human suit while I’m being present to this space. When I make decisions and take actions like an energy being instead of like a human, life works better overall, and it’s easier to experience a pleasing range of frequencies in this human existence – love, abundance, creative flow, friendship, cuddles, and so on.
Interestingly I’ve found that the best way to mess up my human life is to think too much like a human and not enough as an energy being. I sense that’s why many of us are actually here though. This is a place where we go to disconnect and take a break from spirit space, so we can immerse ourselves in silly human stuff. Then when we’re ready, we can open up and find our way back to other modes of existence. We all know these human lives are temporary. Be as human as you want to be. I love playing human too. This really is a wonderful place to visit when approached with curiosity, openness, and a towel. Remember not to panic. 😉
Setting Energy-Level Intentions
Setting energy-level intentions (as opposed to human-level intentions) can be especially helpful when we’re attuned to our energy-level beingness. For instance, instead of intending a certain amount of money to come into your life, you could intend to create a loving, flowing, abundant, and supportive relationship with the Spirit of Money. Treat this energy with love and respect, not with fear or demonization. Invite it to dance with you. You can do the same with other energies like health energy, sex energy, or friendship energy. Then you may see new people flowing into your life as carriers of these energies.
I think it could have been the intention to work with love energy in the form of psychedelics that also cracked open more awareness of the astral world while dreaming. By setting an energy-level intention, I think I’ve somehow invited some energy-level training to flow through. Or perhaps my human mind is projecting this flow into a training sequence. I feel like my mind may still have the embedded assumption that it needs to be trained with information or skills before it can use those skills. Human minds can be so linear with cause-and-effect relationships sometimes. I’ll keep inviting my mind to loosen up in that regard, so I can enjoy more positive effects without needing to put causes into motion first.
Stretching Beyond Mental Limits
Even these hard-to-comprehend nighttime astral experiences are trickling down into some human-level insights and benefits too. They’re encouraging me to engage with more of what I don’t understand instead of trying to first put together reasoned models based on what I think I know. I’m stretching myself to take small actions in some direction where I don’t really have good models and perhaps never will. I realize that models are another form of limits.
Do I always need to tether myself to mental models that make sense? No, I can explore past their edges, especially by allowing myself some wiggle room to sense and experience without trying to interpret or assign meaning so much. This is helping me access more expansive data flows that don’t really fit my existing models. I feel this is coming through more abundantly now because I’m consciously opening myself to seeing what I don’t understand and what doesn’t fit cleanly into my human mind.
It’s been a struggle for me not to label these experiences as weird or strange. I’m trying to get past that because these labels feel limiting too, like they’re also blocks. It reminds of me of labeling an amount of money as “a lot” – I learned to only do that if I want to push that amount away since it’s easier to attract and experience what feels normal. So I’m doing my best to catch myself and to allow more room for surprises without mentally pushing them to the outskirts of my reality.
I’ve successfully made that transition with psychedelics. Such explorations used to seem way out there. Now they just seem normal. I enjoy and appreciate them very much, and my life is awash in people who feel similarly.
Even doing something new that I’ve never done before just seems pretty normal. It’s still a big deal to me to do something new and stretchy, yet it’s also normal to do things that I feel are big deals. Being in love every day is normal for me yet also a big deal. I like having positive big deals in my life that also feel normal.
The daily sex challenge that I shared about in the integration post is another exploration that involves letting go of old limits. It’s been a long journey so far, now 3.5 months. We’ve kept going past the original intention of 100 days – we’re up to 106 now, and today will be 107 (it feels like a when, not an if, so I’ll let that be my reality for now). This exploration still has some very mysterious aspects to it. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to come up with great mental models that can explain the full range of these experiences. So part of me just wants to switch off or pause the need to do that and keep advancing further anyway. This is another aspect of life that feels like a big deal and is also normal.
I want to see if I can allow my human mind to keep advancing even when it’s confused. Can I integrate this much wiggle room into my models of self and reality? I believe so. I imagine that many people working on advanced AI have to make that kind of concession in order to keep showing up to work. They keep advancing what their human minds are incapable of understanding.
This is a very interesting type of limit to stretch beyond – the limits of human comprehension.
