{"id":4199,"date":"2023-09-18T00:55:50","date_gmt":"2023-09-18T04:55:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/parmaks.com\/Resources\/an-uncommon-meditation-on-presence-and-the-aperture-of-wonder-the-marginalian\/"},"modified":"2023-09-18T00:55:50","modified_gmt":"2023-09-18T04:55:50","slug":"an-uncommon-meditation-on-presence-and-the-aperture-of-wonder-the-marginalian","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/parmaks.com\/Resources\/an-uncommon-meditation-on-presence-and-the-aperture-of-wonder-the-marginalian\/","title":{"rendered":"An Uncommon Meditation on Presence and the Aperture of Wonder \u2013 The Marginalian"},"content":{"rendered":"<p> <a href=\"https:\/\/hop.clickbank.net\/?affiliate=infohatch&amp;vendor=J1R2C\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-10614 aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/parmaks.com\/Resources\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/profit-gen400px.png\" alt=\"Profit Gen\" width=\"400\" height=\"217\" srcset=\"http:\/\/parmaks.com\/Resources\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/profit-gen400px.png 400w, http:\/\/parmaks.com\/Resources\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/profit-gen400px-300x163.png 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 400px) 100vw, 400px\" \/><\/a><br \/>\n<\/p>\n<div>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Sound-Wild-Snail-Eating\/dp\/161620642X\/?tag=braipick-20\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"320\" height=\"442\" class=\"cover alignright size-medium jetpack-lazy-image\" alt=\"The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating: An Uncommon Meditation on Presence and the Aperture of Wonder\" decoding=\"async\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/wildsnaileating.jpg?w=1085&amp;ssl=1 1085w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/wildsnaileating.jpg?resize=320%2C442&amp;ssl=1 320w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/wildsnaileating.jpg?resize=600%2C829&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/wildsnaileating.jpg?resize=240%2C332&amp;ssl=1 240w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/wildsnaileating.jpg?resize=768%2C1062&amp;ssl=1 768w\" data-lazy-sizes=\"(max-width: 320px) 100vw, 320px\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/wildsnaileating.jpg?fit=320%2C442&amp;ssl=1&amp;is-pending-load=1\"\/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Anything you lavish with attention will become a mirror, a portal, a lens on the meaning of life \u2014 <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2022\/06\/12\/g-k-chesterton-dandelion\/\">a dandelion<\/a>, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2017\/06\/22\/loren-eiseley-muskrat\/\">a muskrat<\/a>, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2020\/09\/02\/rene-daumal-mount-analogue\/\">a mountain<\/a>. <\/p>\n<p>A snail.<\/p>\n<p>Not long after I wrote <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2021\/01\/02\/the-snail-with-the-right-heart\/\">an existentially hued children\u2019s book about a snail<\/a>, a friend sent me Elisabeth Tova Bailey\u2019s slender, splendid memoir <a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Sound-Wild-Snail-Eating\/dp\/161620642X\/?tag=braipick-20\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><strong><em>The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating<\/em><\/strong><\/a> (<a href=\"https:\/\/www.worldcat.org\/title\/419844257\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><em>public library<\/em><\/a>) \u2014 the record of an uncommon experiment in learning that the smaller the aperture of attention, the more wonder rushes in.<\/p>\n<figure class=\"wp-caption alignnone\"><a href=\"https:\/\/society6.com\/product\/paul-sougy-the-snail-1955-proceeds-benefit-the-nature-conservancy_print?sku=s6-11997296p4a1v46?curator=brainpicker\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" width=\"680\" height=\"901\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-69317 jetpack-lazy-image\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?w=1200&amp;ssl=1 1200w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=240%2C318&amp;ssl=1 240w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=320%2C424&amp;ssl=1 320w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=768%2C1018&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=600%2C795&amp;ssl=1 600w\" data-lazy-sizes=\"(max-width: 680px) 100vw, 680px\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=680%2C901&amp;is-pending-load=1#038;ssl=1\"\/><noscript><img loading=\"lazy\" data-lazy-fallback=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=680%2C901&amp;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" width=\"680\" height=\"901\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-69317\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?w=1200&amp;ssl=1 1200w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=240%2C318&amp;ssl=1 240w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=320%2C424&amp;ssl=1 320w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=768%2C1018&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/sougy_snail.jpg?resize=600%2C795&amp;ssl=1 600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 680px) 100vw, 680px\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\"\/><\/noscript><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-caption-text\">Snail by <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2019\/11\/29\/paul-sougy\/\">Paul Sougy<\/a>. (Available <a href=\"https:\/\/society6.com\/product\/paul-sougy-the-snail-1955-proceeds-benefit-the-nature-conservancy_print?sku=s6-11997296p4a1v46?curator=brainpicker\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">as a print<\/a>.)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>At thirty-four, while traveling through Europe, Bailey was felled by severe neurological symptoms \u2014 the result of a mysterious viral or bacterial invasion that savaged her mitochondria, vanquishing youth\u2019s sense of invincibility, subverting the common faith in modern medicine: In and out of hospitals as treatment after treatment failed to help, she was eventually left pinned to her bed at home, the distance to the bookshelf across the room an expedition demanding a whole day\u2019s energies. She reflects:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p>Given the ease with which health infuses life with meaning and purpose, it is shocking how swiftly illness steals away those certainties.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>She slips into the time-warp of illness \u2014 the way it has of making an eternity of a single moment while letting entire days vanish. Millennia after Seneca contemplated <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2019\/04\/17\/seneca-letter-1-time\/\">the balance of time spent, saved, and wasted<\/a> and a decade before Zadie Smith considered <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2020\/08\/13\/zadie-smith-intimations-something-to-do\/\">the pandemic as a lens on time<\/a>, Bailey observes:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p>Time unused and only endured still vanishes, as if time itself is starving, and each day is swallowed whole, leaving no crumbs, no memory, no trace at all.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>And then the blur is suddenly interrupted by a peculiar gift: One day, a friend brings her a pot of violets from the nearby forest, housing a single <em>Neohelix albolabris<\/em> \u2014 a common woodland snail.<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_80925\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2021\/01\/02\/the-snail-with-the-right-heart\/\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" width=\"680\" height=\"685\" class=\"size-full wp-image-80925 jetpack-lazy-image\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?w=1200&amp;ssl=1 1200w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=320%2C322&amp;ssl=1 320w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=600%2C605&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=240%2C242&amp;ssl=1 240w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=768%2C774&amp;ssl=1 768w\" data-lazy-sizes=\"(max-width: 680px) 100vw, 680px\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=680%2C685&amp;is-pending-load=1#038;ssl=1\"\/><noscript><img data-lazy-fallback=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=680%2C685&amp;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" width=\"680\" height=\"685\" class=\"size-full wp-image-80925\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?w=1200&amp;ssl=1 1200w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=320%2C322&amp;ssl=1 320w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=600%2C605&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=240%2C242&amp;ssl=1 240w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/snail_PingZhu2.jpg?resize=768%2C774&amp;ssl=1 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 680px) 100vw, 680px\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\"\/><\/noscript><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-caption-text\">Art by Ping Zhu from <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2021\/01\/02\/the-snail-with-the-right-heart\/\"><em>The Snail with the Right Heart<\/em><\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>At first indignant about what she could possibly do with a bivalve pet when she can hardly sit up, Bailey grows quickly fascinated by the creature\u2019s feeding habits, its sleep rhythms, its gentle insistence on survival. She decides to give it a proper home. In a dusty corner of the barn next to the studio where she is bedridden, her caretaker finds a discarded glass aquarium that soon becomes a lavish terrarium filled with native plants from the snail\u2019s woodland home. <\/p>\n<p>Having once made a living as a professional gardener, Bailey takes vivifying delight in populating the tiny botanical garden, listing out plants she doesn\u2019t know whether she will ever again see in the wild: <\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p>Goldthread \u2014 aptly named for its colorful roots \u2014 holding its trio of delicate, paw-shaped leaves high on a thin stem; partridgeberry, with its round, dark green leaves and its small, bright red berries, which lasted for months; the larger, waxy leaves of checkerberry; many kinds of moss; small polypody ferns; a tiny spruce tree; a rotting birch log; and a piece of old bark encrusted with multicolored lichen.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<figure id=\"attachment_77485\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/society6.com\/product\/fern-by-anne-pratt-1800s-benefitting-the-nature-conservancy_framed-print?curator=brainpicker\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" width=\"680\" height=\"1083\" class=\"size-full wp-image-77485 jetpack-lazy-image\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?w=1200&amp;ssl=1 1200w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=320%2C510&amp;ssl=1 320w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=600%2C956&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=240%2C382&amp;ssl=1 240w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=768%2C1224&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=964%2C1536&amp;ssl=1 964w\" data-lazy-sizes=\"(max-width: 680px) 100vw, 680px\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=680%2C1083&amp;is-pending-load=1#038;ssl=1\"\/><noscript><img data-lazy-fallback=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=680%2C1083&amp;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" width=\"680\" height=\"1083\" class=\"size-full wp-image-77485\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?w=1200&amp;ssl=1 1200w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=320%2C510&amp;ssl=1 320w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=600%2C956&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=240%2C382&amp;ssl=1 240w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=768%2C1224&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.themarginalian.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/annepratt_fern.jpg?resize=964%2C1536&amp;ssl=1 964w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 680px) 100vw, 680px\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\"\/><\/noscript><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-caption-text\">Fern by <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2022\/06\/29\/anne-pratt-botanical-art\/\">Anne Pratt<\/a>. (Available as <a href=\"https:\/\/society6.com\/product\/fern-by-anne-pratt-1800s-benefitting-the-nature-conservancy_framed-print?curator=brainpicker\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">a print<\/a> and as <a href=\"https:\/\/society6.com\/brainpicker\/cards?sort=new\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">stationery cards<\/a>, benefitting The Nature Conservancy.)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>Captive in her bedroom, she comes to see the snail\u2019s home as a microcosm of existence \u2014 its terrarium an entire world, its miniature movements an ongoing odyssey, emanating what the great naturalist Henry Beston celebrated as <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2016\/07\/26\/henry-beston-northern-farm-smallness\/\">the sacredness of smallness<\/a>. In paying such tender and total attention to the snail\u2019s life, she learns to pay attention to life itself at the focal point of the living moment, which is the only share of eternity we have. She reflects:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p>Survival often depends on a specific focus: a relationship, a belief, or a hope balanced on the edge of possibility. Or something more ephemeral: the way the sun passes through the hard, seemingly impenetrable glass of a window and warms the blanket, or how the wind, invisible but for its wake, is so loud one can hear it through the insulated walls of a house.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>Looking in on the snail\u2019s miniature universe, she learns to look out \u2014 out of the human-sized terrarium of her bedroom, out of the painful circumstance of her illness, out of the limiting if-only mind that tells us we need certain conditions in order to feel the majesty and mystery of life; she learns that even the smallest opening is enough for beauty and wonder to pour in, and that we make the opening with the sharpness of our attention \u2014 for attention is <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2023\/05\/10\/iain-mcgilchrist-the-matter-with-things\/\">how we render reality what it is<\/a>. <\/p>\n<p>With an eye to her widened lens of wonder, she writes:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p>As I window-watched, I observed the comings and goings of my neighbors; they, too, were part of the rhythm of my familiar rural landscape. They would depart for work or errands and later return, walk their dogs, cut firewood, and check their roadside mailboxes. As twilight deepened, the low dart of a nighthawk over the field would catch my eye. Darkness brought the sparking of secret codes from the mate-seeking fireflies. Then, black on black, the swift shapes of bats would swoop for late-night morsels, and the hooting of owls would come softly, softly, from the woods \u2014 until all was quiet and still beneath the ancient brightness of distant stars and the shape-shifting moon.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Sound-Wild-Snail-Eating\/dp\/161620642X\/?tag=braipick-20\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><strong><em>The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating<\/em><\/strong><\/a> is a benediction of a book in its entirety \u2014 the kind rapturous to read, difficult to write about. Couple it with Virginia Woolf on <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2019\/05\/06\/virginia-woolf-on-being-ill\/\">illness as a portal to self-understanding<\/a>, then revisit Helen Macdonald\u2019s stunning memoir of <a href=\"https:\/\/www.themarginalian.org\/2015\/12\/16\/h-is-for-hawk\/\">what a hawk taught her about life<\/a>.<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/hop.clickbank.net\/?affiliate=infohatch&amp;vendor=J1R2C\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-10614 aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/parmaks.com\/Resources\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/profit-gen400px.png\" alt=\"Profit Gen\" width=\"400\" height=\"217\" srcset=\"http:\/\/parmaks.com\/Resources\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/profit-gen400px.png 400w, http:\/\/parmaks.com\/Resources\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/profit-gen400px-300x163.png 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 400px) 100vw, 400px\" \/><\/a><br \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Anything you lavish with attention will become a mirror, a portal, a lens on the meaning of life \u2014 a dandelion, a muskrat, a mountain. 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